My Body

Back against the concrete, skin bare. Only the rain covers her.
It slowly drips down her body, leaving a trail of goose bumps behind.
Her hip bones stick gently out of her skin, her stomach rises up and down slightly as her heart pushes blood through her shivering limbs. Her face pale, lips slightly parted releasing her cold breath into the already freezing environment.
She finds her self staring up into the dark sky. She can see nothing except the raindrops falling from the sky, staining her skin.
How did she get here, she wondered.
How did it ever come to this.
She could remember the time her innocence was valued, how she cherished it.
She tried to move but knew it was impossible. Constant pain shoots up her spine.
The concrete became stained, and her once colourful, full face turned pale in the damp street light.
Her body was becoming traced in red.
The rain led up to her collar bone and then to her neck, revealing a simple slice.
If you listened closely you could hear her final words being spoken from the small sliver in her skin.
Forever.
Before
She walks out the house, jacket pulled closely around her thin frame and a scarf loosely caressing her neck. She locks the door and emerges out onto her small street, looks around then unlocks her car door.
Her pocket vibrates, she pulls it out before starting the car: 2 missed texts.
She opens the first one:
Miss you, are you coming tonight?
Her reply:
Of course ;p
She started the car and drove out of her street.
Her phone rang, and it connected to the blue tooth.
Where are you? It's started!
The voices were too loud in the background, enticing her, creating a slight excitement in the pit of her stomach.
Her reply:
Of course babe.
She exits out of her small street and pulls out onto the busy main road. She makes a fluent left hand turn, her stomach jumping a bit as she nearly misses the oncoming car. She had always wondered what it would be like to get into a car accident. The loud crushing of the car, metal on metal screaming, and the engines moaning as the impact crushes their organs.
Her phone vibrates.
She pulls up at a stop light and checks it:
See you soon sweet!
She makes a right hand turn and drives farther out into the middle of no where. She cranks up the music and rolls down her window, feeling the cool air moving through her long brown hair. She could smell her shampoo, almost vanilla but not quite.
She takes her final turn and finds her self in the familiar neighbourhood  inter lay with money and incestuous relationships tied in with more money.
She pulls up to the familiar long driveway and turns off her car, before she exits she notices a figure standing on the driveway waiting for her. She waits as the individual approaches her. She miles when she sees his face. He invites himself in the car.
He leans over and gently parts his lips inviting her to lean in as well by caressing her thigh.
She leans in feeling her lips against his. He tasted of booze.
I can see the party has already begun.
He smiled coyly:
Now it's begun.
He leaned in for a final kiss, when the door opened.
She quickly separated only to see his back turned talking to someone else.
She decided now would be a good time to get out the car and move towards him.
She walked up to the figure at the door and rapped her arms around him slowly embracing him. She placed her lips on his and continued for a while as the other male figure slipped beside the two of them placing his hand on the small of her back.
She shuddered as he did this.
That was her weak spot.
They separated:
Glad to see you, it's been a while babe.
She replied:
I missed you.
She separated and pulled his hand into the thick of the people, and went straight to the kitchen. She helped her self to a cup of clear, pink liquid and sucked it back
Whooaa, pace your self
She replied:
No time
Him:
What do you mean?
She replied:
No time
She slowly parted away from him, but before leaving left him with a deep kiss.
She moved upstairs, grabbing cups of different coloured liquids and downing them as quickly as she could.
She moved in a general direction, knowing this path all to well, taking this walk one too many times.
She found the door and gently knocked.
She entered.
The figure in the car was siting on a large bed with black sheets. The room, dimly lit, and the figure spoke:
Come here.
She obeyed.
He had that power, the power to induce her to buckle down and listen, to only do what he wants. Was it love, or was it just fear of disappointing him?
She sat, and he pushed her, so her back was against the bed.
Her hands wandered to the back of his head, combing her fingers through is hair.
He bent his head down kissed her hips moving up her body, then removing her shirt.
She lowered her hands bellow his waist, encouraging him to keep on going.
Her stomach was calm, her head was calm, her body was calm. She knew what she wanted. She knew what was going to happen.
He continued moving, now him with no shirt on, crawling over her bare body with just his boxers. She breathed in as he traced her hips.
He whispered:
It's always me, right?
She replied:
Forever
He moved faster, bringing her body closer to him.
She slid her fingers to the bed side table where her phone lay and pressed send.
She waited, she could hear heavy steps moving up the stairs, and then the became quiet.
The door opened, a small amount of light pouring in.
She tried not to look, and was surprised he didn't notice.
She breathed in and moaned, and the door closed.
She took another breath pushed him off and started putting her clothes back on.
He was mad, swearing and threw his pants on.
A bead of sweat move down the side of his forehead.
Why? You love me don't you
She replied:
No time
She got up moving towards the door, but made sure to kiss him on his forehead before she left
As she reached the door, he grabbed her arms, turned her around and pinned her against the wall.
She didn't think it would go like this.
His hand balled up, knuckles white reared back and reached her soft pale cheeks.
She crumbled under the sheer pressure of his hands.
A tear rushed down her cheeks as he said:
I love you!!! I want you! You said forever!
She replied:
No time
And walked out of the room, walking down the similar hallway, the whole time him standing outside his door calling for her.
She buckled her belt and continued out the door. She was shaking, wiping the tear tenderly away from her cheek trying not to press to hard.
She reached for a few more cups of liquid downing 4 or 5 and could feel them hitting her instantly as she tried to move down the stairs.
She reached the bottom floor safely, but had to hold onto the banister.
She walked over to the washroom, and splashed water over her face.
It stung, she looked into the mirror, gently touching the inflamed cheek.
She left picking up her jacket and making sure she still had her car keys.
She opened the massive doors and started walking towards her car.
And there he was as if it was bound to happen standing there.
She walked slowly, approaching with caution. She could see his angry breath reaching the atmosphere. It was tainted, with love, lust, and anger. She put her head down.
She calmly walked over to him, he wasted no time:
Who is he? I thought you loved me! You said for ever!
He grabbed her, pushing her, screaming in her face.
She replied:
No time
She stepped back, feeling the rain hit her face and she got into the car, opening the passenger side for him to get in.
She tried to reason with him, telling him to calm down.
But before she could he got in the car locking the doors and telling her to drive.
There was an anger in his voice that only in stilled fear, no love, no passion, just fear.
She drove off, shivering wanting to scream out crying, telling him she did love, she wanted him more than anything else, but then she wished she said the same to the other.
She rounded the corner but was stopped.
He put his hand on the wheel.
Stop
He pushed her back ripping at her clothes.
I want you
She struggled, this was not the plan.She did not want this. She wanted to do this peacefully, happily.
She pushed and kicked and screamed. She wanted him to stop, she wanted him to think clearly.
Her pants came off.
She whimpered feeling helpless, she kicked and tried to move one final time, but his fists struck her like lightning and she was out.
When she came to she no longer had any clothes on.
He found his way and she cried out.
She lay there, her breath heavy.
She wanted to throw up, she wanted out.
She tried to reach for her glove compartment.
That's when the door opened, he was pulled out and screamed.
She regained full consciousness and looked out of the car.
They were hitting each other, screaming at each other
Your my friend!!! What were you doing to her!!
There was blood and cries, pleading for help.
Stop! Please, I'm sorry!! I love her.
She couldn't take it she reached for the glove compartment and decided to end it.
She stepped out the car, her pale skin alive to the world.
She yelled:
Stop!
They stopped and she cried:
No time.
With the small silver blade she reached it up to her neck.
She cried out wishing it would never end like this.
I love you. 
This was not the plan, it was not supposed to end like this.
Peace is all she wanted.
And with one quick swipe she ended her time.
After
She had no time,
Her body was no longer hers.
Her lover's ran, looking for a phone, but it was to late.
She wanted forever but she had no time.
The blood stopped pooling, leaving her empty, and yet there it was.
She lay there her perfect body bare to the world with a simple smile on her pale face.
No one would ever understand why.
All there is to know is there was no time
She had no time but wanted forever.